Tuesday, September 3, 2013

scared out of my mind

i start school today.
15 credits.
1 baby.
1 husband.
24 hours each day.

i have never been so nervous or scared about anything in my life.
i kind of feel on the constant verge of hyperventilating.
i honestly don't know how i will do it. or if i even can.

her smile
and hugs + encouraging and loving words from my husband will keep me going.
and i need to trust in the Lord now more than ever because i for sure can't do this without His help.

jane, thanks for being worth it.

i'm sure that because of you, i will grow in ways i never thought possible this year.
and i suppose i should be grateful for that opportunity.
but I'm scared.

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  1. Good luck, Kerri! You can do it!

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    1. thanks kristen....and YOU can have a newborn and a 1 year old and live to tell the tale! ;)

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  2. I know you can do this! I'll keep you guys in my prayers, too because that has got to be overwhelming. You're an amazing spouse and mother. You got this.

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    1. thank you so much!! i'll need all the prayers i can get. also i love what you have been doing on your blog! you are such a good missionary! love it :)

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  3. Lycka till!!! (as they would say "Good luck!" in Swedish :) Your baby believes in you!!! And we all believe in you :)

    PS- i just looked at one of your old blog posts when your husband was a baby... my husband and I had a good laugh :) AND your baby turned out pretty dang cute!!!

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    1. haha i know jane totally looks like jeff but still manages to be darn cute....not like jeff was when he was a baby! haha...thanks for the good luck! and i hope your pregnancy is going well :)

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  4. I know you don't me well, but I'm in Provo going to BYU and working, and if you ever need a few hours at night or on the weekend to rest or get homework done....I would love to help out. Seriously. Email me if you ever need a free babysitter and I'm there. You're awesome for going to school and raising Jane at the same time!

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    1. hey kylie...that's really nice of you to offer and i might have to take you up on it! :) i added you on Facebook so i can message you on there if i need to. I'm sure you are busy too so thats really nice. this semester might be better than I'm envisioning but I'm pretty sure it'll be pretty hectic. haha.

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    2. Haha, I can only imagine! Sometimes it's hard keeping track of my own schedule, let alone a husband's and a baby's as well. Seriously let me know if you need anything!

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  6. You'll get through this love. :) It'll be stressful, but you'll know in your heart that it's all worth it!

    Sincerely, Dani Rose

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  7. oh my goodness, your daughter is adorable!! and i have so much faith in you. i'm so nervous to be in school when i have my baby! i can hardly take care of myself & my husband. way to be! seriously it takes so much courage to even think about it, and you've done that! you're amazing.

    xo
    laura

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