FULL TERM!

37 weeks? 

well shoot, thats full term!

so, what does a full term pregnancy feel like to me?

+ exciting. as in, my baby could technically come any day exciting.

+ hurting. all over.

+ KILLER heartburn. like, i have to sleep sitting up in a chair and it's still bad. i am so so excited for this to go away when i have my baby.

+ because of that and other pregnancy related things, sleep is hard to come by.

+ very small appetite. 

+ except, i usually get hungry once a day. ravenously hungry. it hits me like a brick wall and i start sweating and eating the first thing i can get my hands on.

+ yeah, my life is normal. its great.

+ cravings? sonic ice. thats basically all i ever want. so yeah, i go to sonic and order a cup of ice. abnormal? yes. thank goodness for happy hour!

+ overall weight gain is 15 pounds. i feel like i have gained a lot more than that.

+ nausea is back. the familiar scene of me leaning over the toilet and my husband rubbing my back has once again made its way back into my life.

+ the occasional contractions. gotta love it.

+ dr. appointments galore. about every other day, actually. ultra sounds, non-stress tests, regular obgyn appointments, dopplers....you name it!

+ these appointments are graciously accompanied by big fat checks. holy cow we have spent so much money lately.

+ at my appointment yesterday, i got checked for progress. i was sure i hadn't made any.

i was wrong! I'm 2 cm dilated and 70% effaced. my baby's head is also VERY low. it is amazing to me that my body really knows what to do and is getting ready for this baby!

+ that being said, the doctors are not letting me go past 39 weeks and will induce me then unless i go into labor on my own. you know what that means? 2 weeks or less until i get to meet my little girl. :) 

the word excited doesn't quite cover it.

+ the reason I am getting induced? my pregnancy is considered high risk because of my baby's size. homegirl is TINY. but perfectly healthy. they still want to induce me a bit early to be on the safe side because I guess there are higher risks of still born and yucky depressing things for smaller babies who stay in too long.

+ for every feeling of discomfort and pain, the love i have for this little one is double that times nine. i know it is a miracle to be pregnant and to have a healthy baby. and i know it will be worth it and i would be happy to do it over 100 times just to become a mother for the first time again. i feel so incredibly blessed!

this was a really boring post. but i want to be able to look back and compare future pregnancies with this one. and i want to remember this time because it's hard, but so amazing.

so- for the sake of posterity!

give yourself a pat on the back if you were able to suffer through this one.