I cant wait for July 22. I have another little baby growing inside of me right this very moment, and on that day I get to meet that sweet little nugget. Often times the thought of that makes me beam with joy. Because this time, I know the outcome, and it's the most heavenly thing. I'm already daydreaming about the first night I have with this baby, we will cuddle all night long and heck no those nurses will not take my baby away for the night- I can't let those precious hours pass by without soaking up every single moment. Because (if you ask me) for the first day of life, they are still half way in heaven, halfway on earth; which means there is very little reason for them to cry. So mostly they just cuddle and let you stare at their eyes in complete awe. It's overwhelming because they are a blank slate and it's your job to fill it up, but at the same time you have an inkling that this fresh-from-heaven spirit knows a lot more than you do about some things.
Anyways, I'm getting a bit ahead of myself. And also going a little overboard on the mushiness. I guess you could say I'm excited? But, if you were wondering, no I do not have a preference of gender.
- a girl would be perfect because jane would have a forever friend and I can dress them in matching outfits until they start to get embarrassed by it.
- a boy would be perfect because I don't have one of those yet and jeff would have a son and all his wildest dreams would come true. But I'll admit, I'm a bit frightened about changing a diaper and getting sprayed in the face with pee without any warning.
Oh and I also don't have any idea as to what gender it is either, let's face it, that motherly instinct that they speak of? I have none of it because I would've bet my right arm that jane was a boy...
I do need to take a moment to toot my own horn because for the past 3ish weeks I haven't eaten ANY sugar. Some of my family started the no sugar for a year challenge and I thought it'd be a good idea since with jane, I basically lived off of sour patch kids. Also I failed my first glucose test with her. #sugarmonster. So no sugar for this baby...but cheese? Oh so much cheese. I think the amount of cheese I have eaten this pregnancy has counteracted the benefits of eating no sugar. You win some, you lose some.
Also, since I don't know what this baby looks like yet, I'll just reminisce about jane when she was a baby, and continue on daydreaming :)