Painful and surprising family crisis + PMS + husband being gone 24/7 and also leaving all next week + i was finally going to have time with him last night but he ditched me to go to a movie with his friends instead + i ran into everyone in the world today on campus right after i rolled out of bed and braved the outside world thinking i might get lucky and not see anyone i know. but then i actually saw everyone. so, yeah ugly kerri plus i didn't have the stamina to fake any smiles today.
and i just want to go to arizona. also i am so incredibly selfish for even saying any of this and acting like i am the victim. cuz I'm not. i realize I'm doing the opposite of counting my blessings. (and i realize there are many.) and I'm not being a wonderful, positive, and grateful person. let's face it. I'm not that person. not one bit. at least not today.
today is rotten like a rotten egg.
so i'm going to go take a nap.
i hope nobody reads this but it had to be written. I'm thinking about making this blog private anyways, for this very reason.
*EDIT: ALL I NEEDED WAS A NAP.