things i will miss

I can already picture myself in...who knows how many years. Maybe 15? I will begin to feel like my children are sprouting up much quicker than I ever imagined they would. Jane will be close to leaving me to take on the world. (even though just the other day she assured me "I will never leave you mommy!" Liar.) And only knowing her for the few short years of her life, I am confident that she will take it on with much gusto, determination, and persistence. That being said, I know I will ache as I wonder how on earth my babies aren't actually babies anymore.

I will miss hearing the pitter patter of little toddler feet (oh, how i will miss it!) every morning as they run to the door to greet a new day. Running, never walking, because life is just too exciting at this age!

I will miss being able to fix ALL the problems and come to the rescue about 17 times a day. And hearing the phrase "Mommy! I need HELPS."

I will miss carrying a little baby on my hip and kissing her sweet scented (or sometimes barf scented) head as I prepare lunch for other hungry mouths.

I will miss seeing my children's faces light up every time they see me. (Heavens knows that will not be how it is forever...TEENS!)

((Jane//Lyla 6 months))

I will miss being able to watch their eyes light up as they discover the world, and all of its wonderful things it has to offer, for the very first time.

I will miss the days when all I had to do to entertain my child was take her sock off so she can play with her feet.

I will miss the cuddles. Oh, so badly.

I will miss sitting my 2 girls on my lap and reading books for hours. And then realizing that I have every last one of them memorized.

I will miss watching them form their sister relationship :)

I will miss folding teeny tiny pink baby clothes as I try to remember how the most recent stain was acquired.

I will miss the fact that they always, always want to be with me. Because teenagers hate their moms, at least occasionally. (can you tell i'm scared for teenagers? help!)

I will miss nursing my sweet baby to sleep and being able to miraculously sustain that sweet, perfect little body. (Ok typing that made me cry. I love nursing so, so much.)

And I will miss changing 8-10 diapers a day. HAHA, JUST KIDDING.

I truly love this stage of life and I want to relish every single moment I have with these little ones. It's incredibly frustrating to watch time march on at such alarming speeds. Like, wasn't I in high school a few days ago writing in my journal about what I wanted my future husband to be like and how excited I was to be a mom? HOW. How am I here now? It boggles my mind on a daily basis. A good kind of boggle.

Today I was reading Jane the book Are You My Mother. I asked her, "Do you have a mother?" and she pointed to me and said "YOU are my mother!" Mother. I'm a mother! And let me just tell you, there is nothing else in this world I'd rather be than exactly that.